“Diary entry: 7/22/24 – Fears“

So today was Interesting.

I had an epiphany that my therapist would be proud of.

I fear exposing too much about myself. I fear overpowering people. I don’t let people influence me, even to my detriment, and I hold myself back from affecting others. This realization came to me after venting to a friend about petty relationship issues. The topic went off the yellow brick road, but after letting my day simmer, this conclusion hit me hard. Essentially, I complained that they were catering to my needs, but I feared a pattern of tweaks would result in them losing themselves. I couldn’t trust them to handle themself and took it upon myself to stop my fear from happening.

There is something to hearing yourself complain; sometimes, it sounds different outside your head.