“Could I sit beside you? “

Could I sit beside you? 

If I come softly towards you

With a hint of youthful fear, learn from you

I wish to barrow your eye to see you

My sight of you is tainted by the old version

That die out of executions

If I could see you as you see you

I might know you 

The way your lack of words wouldn’t allow

I go to my past attempt at knowing you

Felt close but each clue was a dud

I might stop visiting the past if 

I could understand you now

If I think of only how you are now,

Not the sorrow you brought to yourself 

That cascade me

I might understand why you smile at me

With joy and look at me with fear