“Diary Entry: 8/16/24 – Recharge“

It’s been a while since I spent the whole day at home. I had to recharge my social battery. I usually work from home on Friday, but I canceled meetups and out-for-dates for today. I didn’t want to step foot outside.
My twenty-year-old self won’t recognize me, so I have pushed myself to be more social. I started ignoring my low social battery because I enjoy being around people but hate feeling drained. My brain lags, my movements are stiffer, and I can’t follow a conversation to save my life.

I wouldn’t call myself an empath because I am unsure if they could exist. My interpretation of other emotions doesn’t make them their emotion, but I enjoy being in the presence of others’ joy; I love the sensation they give. But it takes a lot out of me to be in intense energy. When I am overwhelmed, my social battery drains rapidly.

I’ve been pushing myself lately, but today, I had to listen to my body; I needed no interaction. I envy those who get energy from others, but I do enjoy my own serenity. I’m taking this time to check in with myself.